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Out of the Pit

September 25, 2017

Are you ready for another utterly raw post?

I’m writing this carefully and without photos because I will straight up cry. I attempted to find some photos from a few years ago and it made my heart sink.

If you guys read through my posts from our time in Tennessee you’ll see I was struggling. Pretty darn deep. I was never diagnosed with anything (remember, I don’t like being put in a box anyhow). So let me try to describe what my daily *thought life* was like.

I was being punished.

I was alone.

I wanted to be happy but I didn’t know what that was like.

I cried.

A lot.

I carried so much on myself.

I wanted to leave.

I felt we made a huge mistake.

Those less than 2 years were horrible. Absolutely horrible. And I’d give anything to go back. I was struggling in my health and didn’t even realize it. Don’t get me wrong, I went and saw doctor after doctor nearly every week. Maybe I wanted attention? Of course, nothing was wrong according to them.

Here’s where they were WRONG.

My gut was a cesspool. There was bacteria and all sorts of nastiness making MY BODY it’s home. I never would have believed that my stomach and bowels would have such a dramatic effect on my emotional state.

I READ my Bible! I prayed without ceasing! Wasn’t I doing enough???

MY loves, we are so beautifully and intricately made, we must take care of our temples. Our prayer life, our thought life, our spiritual life can all be effected. And the enemy knows. He knows. Why do you think the grocery store shelves are filled with sugars? Watch me, I’m not blaming the grocery stores, I’m blaming the enemy.

My thought life dramatically changed when I began Plexus. I wasn’t expecting that at all. I just wanted more energy. But when my thought life changed. When I stopped crying and locking myself in my room. My children got their mom back. My husband got his wife back. My friends got me back. I was no longer calling them to vent. God answered their prayers in a way I never would’ve believed.

The inside of me needed cleaned out. Who would have thought. I didn’t have to steal those memories from my family.

But let me tell you this, had somebody told me, “hey, this will help you.” I would have looked them in the eyes and said, “You don’t know me! You don’t know what I’m dealing with! This is a spiritual battle!” And technically, it was.

Nowadays, my daily routine involves Plexus, adaptogens, nutritionally dense food, fermented foods, and TONS OF WATER!!! Still lots of prayer. Still getting in His word. Still receiving counseling from friends.

To be honest with you, we’re going through something very similar to when we were in Tennessee. We’re looking to move back to Tennessee and I do wonder if I’m being punished for having been such a headache the last time we were there. The difference this time is that I know how to chase those thoughts away.

I know God has us where we are for a reason and I know He’s taking care of us. But, because I know of so many others who are where I was and are dealing with those same hellacious thoughts, I have to let you know what personally helped me. I don’t want to see somebody drowning and just walk away hoping they find a raft. I’m throwing the life saver out to you now. Please, get in touch with me. I’m not a certified counselor but my heart is to be there for others. My love, you’re not alone. We go through experiences to help others! Let me help you. I would love to pray for you. Message me and allow me to add you to my daily prayers. Let me help you on a new health journey that you didn’t know was possible. I’m considering attempting a meal plan, that may be a while. But be patient, it will be worth it.

We were not created to live life alone. Let’s lift each other up during these difficult times.

Blessings!

Being Transformed

September 21, 2017

Hey there strangers! I feel like I’ve been gone forever, but I’ve been thinking of you for a long time. I have so much to share but wanted to make sure I was doing it properly. I’ve been out of the blogging/journaling world for quite a while but it still feels like home. You can’t connect with people on Facebook or Instagram the way you can with blogging. So here goes…

When something clicks I just want to share it with you. I am an Emerald ambassador with Plexus Worldwide and I was supposed to go to Maui this past week, however, we had no one to watch our kids so we were unable to go. It was heartbreaking, I won’t lie, BUT I’m so thankful we didn’t go. We went to church this past Sunday and the sermon was exactly what I’ve needed. I would have hated to have missed out on it. In fact, it’s something I’ve needed for years. I’ve had loved ones and friends trying to tell me this, but I just didn’t get it. This past Sunday it clicked. The pieces fit together perfectly and my mind began processing. Like a child trying to fit the triangle piece into the circle area, it just never worked for me. However, it was more of me not allowing the pieces to fit. I would push the piece away.

This past year had been hell. I’m not even going to candy coat that for you. In fact, the past five years have felt like the hurricane season of 2017. There hasn’t really been a relief and when I thought there was going to be I got walloped with something new. I’m still struggling to find my feet on the ground. Trust has become a thing of the past. Childish, really. I have come upon “believers” who are some of the scariest people I have come to know. There is a reason the Bible tells us not to trust man. You trust God, my loves, and that is it. I won’t lie, as soon as I have a friendship blossoming I have become trained to wait, to wait for the bomb to drop. Because something, I don’t know what, but something is going to happen. We are all broken people. Each and every one of us. If you see somebody’s “perfect life” online, I promise you, they’re hiding something or many somethings.

We drove to Whole Foods today (because really, that’s my happy place) and we began discussing music. Twenty One Pilots, to be specific. These lyrics are easily the strongest christian lyrics I have ever listened to. And so needed, especially for this young generation that needs guidance and advice. We found this on Pinterest and this says it all! And btw, I went to church with Josh, so yeah, they’re believers.

Get up Johnny boy, get up Johnny boy
Get up ’cause the world has left you lying on the ground.
You’re my pride and joy, you’re my pride and joy.
Get up Johnny boy because we all need you now.

We all need you now

I will carry all your names and I will carry all your shame
And I will carry all your names and I will carry all your shame
And I will carry all your names and I will carry all your shame

Instead of people arguing over what version of the Bible we must read to be considered a true christian we should be doing whatever we can to reach out to these hurting kids. When you see a show like 13 Reasons coming out and being as big a hit as it is you must ask yourself why. I can tell you I had to fight wanting to watch that because of the dark pit I resided in for the vast majority of my life. I came away from that show (only watched a few snippets) with a very different view than others. People hated it! And I get it, when you haven’t been through that hell you think it is their fault. But I tell you this, all I ever wanted to know was that I mattered. That I wasn’t just taking up space. I had plenty of people reminding me of how ‘not good enough’ I was. So when somebody would tell me I was enough, it felt like a lie.

Am I getting a little too real with you?

Back to church. Maybe this’ll click with you today, but maybe it won’t. I’m just going to share with you my thoughts. I’ve always thought you had to look a certain way. Be a certain size. Talk a certain way. Like the right music. Listen to the right preachers. Read the right books. Garden, you have to garden. Shop at Target. Make your bed every day. Talk a certain way. Vacation in the right places. Take the right pictures at the right time and share them immediately. You guys, I hate conforming. HATE IT. And honestly, that’s my favorite verse in all of scripture.

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2

Even when I thought I was bucking the trend I would conform to the non conforming extremists. Therefore, conforming….again. Definition of insanity, y’all.

What I’ve been doing this past week is un-conforming. I may not like Pumpkin Spice Lattes, in fact I hate them, too sugary. If you like them, you rock that thing! I believed that I wasn’t good enough to talk about spiritual things or health things (2 of my passions), but I am exactly who God created me to be and He alone planted that desire in my heart and it is the enemy whispering in my ear, at every moment, that I will never be enough.

Months ago I was deeply struggling. Very deep. I remember my husband grabbing my shoulders, looking me in the eyes, and telling me over and over again “you are loved and you are enough.” If he saw my shoulders drop and the tears follow suit he’d say it again. He was telling me with such sincerity but the pieces didn’t match. And can I just say I am blessed far beyond what I deserve.

Even when I was naming this blog I thought I was doing something I shouldn’t. I was reading One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp and thought she would be upset if I used the word Eucharisteo. I remember being shocked that I was able to get the site name. Even hesitant to tell my site when I met her at Allume in October 2013. She is such a gift! Beautiful soul!

Here’s probably the craziest, I am now a Natural Health Professional in the process of becoming a Doctor of Naturopathy. I still ask if I’m allowed to share what I’ve learned. Cause in my head, you pay for your schooling, right? So how can I give away this information that they are selling? Gah, my head can be a bloody circus sometimes.

All of this honesty to come and tell you….it’s time for a renewing. To kick out all of those lies. To hold on to His truth. To get back in His word first and foremost. To stop living for everybody’s approval and to live for only His approval. To know that I am enough because He made me enough. He didn’t miss any ingredients (like I do when I try to cook). He made me perfectly me. Just like He made you perfectly you. There will be some people I can help and there will be some people I can’t. That’s ok. Some people have large audiences and some private parties. There may only be one person that reads this post but I pray, if that’s you, that you are blessed and encouraged to know that there is only one you. There are adventures the Lord has ready for you if, and only if, you trust Him. If, like I was, you don’t think you’re enough for Him to use then you’re listening more to the enemy’s lies than you are to your Father’s truth.

I’m tellin’ ya, the past five years has felt like I’m swimming with sharks against the current. And now I’m preparing to renew my mind. To renew it all. We should love who God created us to be. And give thanks to Him because you, my love, are His masterpiece. You are fearfully and most wonderfully made. Do not ever doubt that. There is somebody who needs to see and know the real you, not the social media you.

One thing I love about being a photographer is capturing the beauty that I see in people. You are far more beautiful than any filter. I just celebrated my 37th birthday. That is something I love doing! I don’t play the 29 Year Old game. 37 years is amazing! That is 37 years some didn’t get to experience. How can you not be thankful for the mountaintops and the dark valleys? This is your story and only your story. God did not give your story to anybody else. This is your story to tell. You are given experiences to help others. We are to link arms as brothers and sisters in Christ to make it through this world stronger.

For a return post I probably put five possible posts into one, lol. But all this has been on my heart and I had to share. I love you all and I’m excited to be back with you. I’ve also begun a new site regarding health. You can find me over at Restoring Moms on Facebook. All this rebooting and restoring. We need to cast out the old and start again! You are enough and you are loved. Share His love with others.

Blessings!

EDITED: to add in this amazing video you MUST watch! Thanks to my friend for sharing this with me!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWi5iXnguTU&feature=youtu.be

This post is aimed at all who follow the Trim Healthy Mama diet. I love doing their fuel cycles and wanted a creative way to still enjoy eggs benedict. So here ya go! All I really did was substitute the English muffin for roasted asparagus. If I wanted a crossover I would have used an Ezekiel English muffin but this here would make it a Deep S. I also chose to use turkey ham because I’m kinda partial to it.

Here is the recipe that I edit to make it THM friendly.

Eggs Benedict

I have made this for years with THM and without. This is a winner! We typically make it Christmas morning. But you have to get it down to an art. It takes a while to prepare. We tend to have multiple people helping in different stations around the kitchen when we make it for the family.

And of course I enjoy with my favorite blood sugar balancer. Love them proteins!

If you’re enjoying the Trim Healthy Mama lifestyle comment below! I’d love to hear your input and hear your progress! THM is more of a family than a diet! Now go make this dish! It is divine y’all!!

Blessings!

The highly coveted Unicorn drink!

Oh wait. Not the same? Not a sugar overload? Wait, no sugar??? Are you flippin’ insane??? Is there at least real unicorn???
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Brighten that grout

April 24, 2017

We have listed our house for sale and one of the last things we needed to address was the kitchen floor. Any time we have tried to whiten the grout in our tile floors we’ve always headed to the hardware store to purchase one of the bleach like whitening pens. Well….we tried that to no avail.

Talking about cleaning products is not typical on this blog BUT what we found that actually worked was so good that I just had to stray from the typical and share with all my friends. So I hope y’all don’t mind, but this is good.So after asking my favorite teacher (also known as Miss Pinterest) I found the cheapest and most surprising solution. As easy as Baking soda + Hydrogen Peroxide.

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