Can I be real with you? These past six years have been intense. That’s putting it nicely. I remember when I was a new Christian I would be praying continually for others and would wonder why nothing bad ever happened to me. Like, I almost wondered if I wasn’t strong enough. But all that changed in 2013. With that being said, I have a really good life. A grace filled, love overflowing life. I still continually pray for others, but I did come into the struggles. I knew with each struggle I was being strengthened to be more like Christ. Yet, there was a good year or two when I became a lot like the world. My thoughts, my words, my actions, they all took a nose dive. I wasn’t the Jennica that God created.

I’m done with that.

That’s not who I am.

I kept hearing the Spirit drawing me back and I kept kinda putting Him off. I still loved His word, but not like I had before. I was tired, I was broken, I felt defeated. I had lost my trust in everyone, including my Creator.

Back in June 2018 we moved back to Nashville, TN (go ahead and read all about that in past posts 2013-2015, cause goodness, that was rough back then). In September 2018 I fell in a dark room at our new church and was rushed to the ER. I was taken into surgery, but we’ll chat about that later. That’s an entire blog series right there. Needless to say, I still haven’t properly moved into our new house. I was so doped up on drugs and literally couldn’t pick up anything so it is now 10 months since moving and I’m finally unpacking. And what did I come across? My favorite book outside of the Bible!

One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp was the reason I began the Eucharisteo blog back in January 2011. Please read this book if you haven’t. It is dripping with hope and encouragement and Christ focus. I can’t believe it’s been 8 years. I began writing after reading this book and my life was filled with His Spirit.Here’s the thing, when you’re speaking God’s word out loud you can always expect that the enemy is near and is ready to attack. I should’ve seen it coming. I drifted. I allowed the troubles of the world to change me, but y’all, just because you get knocked down does not mean you have to stay there.

I don’t know what the new era of Eucharisteo looks like, because I want to be open to following His leading and that means being open to doing something else that He calls me to. Maybe writing about something I never would have even thought about.

I will still be the Christ loving, encouraging, life speaking Jennica you’ve always known. I guess I just wanted to welcome myself back. I’m looking forward to using my *real* camera again. As convenient as the cell phone is the quality just isn’t there.

Can I encourage you to begin a blog? You were created with a story and you should share it! I always used to think I was SO unique. Yet, the more I slow down and look around I see how incredibly similar we all are. You ARE unique, but we are all so exact as well. That’s not a bad thing, by any means. If you feel that tugging on your heart that you should write, DO IT. I don’t write properly and I expect autocorrect to help me more than I should. Yet, my mind is full of thoughts that I want to put down and share with others. Who knows if one thing that you write changes somebody’s day or life! Some may appreciate your writing and others may not. I see it as not everybody loves Jesus and not everybody needs to love me. I’m really not all that great, but if I can give you a slimmer of hope and encouragement then that is my joy.

If you have a blog please comment it below. I’d love to check it out!

With all of that being said, I’m so happy to be back. I was writing over at Restoring Moms for a bit, but I will be transferring all of that over here and will likely give this site a facelift.

I love you all and will be praying for all of you.

Blessings 🌻

Learning from the Past

December 31, 2017

I’ve been struggling with whether or not I wanted to write an end of the year post here. Alas, I finally chose to share my thoughts. Only because I have found so many others walking the same path we have.

Nothing was horrendous about 2017. 2016 took care of that for us. 2016 was the shock of a lifetime. The warning of “do not trust men” (meaning any human being). We were taught that not everything that glitters is always gold. Sometimes it’s just fools gold and that’s all it is. It’s pretty on the outside but it’s just a rock.

2017 has been the year of learning. The year of going back to our true Christian roots and escaping the lies we believed from the modern day Pharisees. I feel like this has been a year of training. Building up of our Christian muscles. Re-learning to rely fully on Him and not on ourselves. I’m always shocked when I hear of others who are going through something so similar. All these years I’ve thought “nobody understands.” That’s so not true. When you are struggling with something I promise you, there is somebody near you who has already or is currently going through the same thing. I believe that is why we walk through valleys. That is where we learn and what the Lord will use in the future to help others near us.

Maybe He’s preparing us for a spiritual battle. No, I promise He is. He is absolutely preparing us for battle. Every moment of every day is a spiritual battle. Be prepared at all times to fight the enemy with God’s word. You will need the…

Belt of truth
Breastplate of righteousness
Shoes of the gospel
Shield of faith
Helmet of salvation
Sword of the Spirit
Prayer
{Ephesians 6:10-18}

With what we’ve gone through these past two years I tell my kids that maybe the Lord was protecting them from a similar deceitful type situation/person in their future. “Don’t forget what we’ve gone through,” I tell them. “Don’t waste this opportunity to learn.”

I do look eagerly to 2018. I’m not sure what the future holds, only that God holds the future and I know He is always tending to His sheep. I am so thankful for His love, guidance, and His provision. Praying for each of you who is reading this that this new year will grow you more like Him.

Blessings to you my sweet friends!

Do Not Disturb

November 30, 2017


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Priscilla Du Preez on Unsplash

Recently I’ve been thinking about the past a lot. Like, how when I had only a couple kids. How I would cook meals, clean house, go on walks, go to the gym, journal, etc. It’s just not the same anymore and it bothers me. Yes, I’ve added five more children to that amount, but I’m not convinced that’s what’s changed. Then it clicked.

It’s Facebook. Continue Reading…

I’m a Goner

October 6, 2017

I have a hot thread going on my Facebook page about this but thought I’d just go ahead and throw a post up because…well…because.

Have you heard of the band Twenty One Pilots?

I am obsessed. Thought it was cool when I found out we used to go to church with the drummer. Of course, he was like 11 years old at the time, but still.

Their music. Their lyrics. The most christian lyrics I’ve ever heard. The artistry knows no bounds. I cry at almost every single song.

As somebody who has struggled the majority of my life with depressing thoughts. Thoughts no person should ever have. Thoughts that only the enemy could have put in my head with the intent of destroying me. These lyrics they sing are felt out. They are deep. They almost always point you to God. Nearly every single song.

One of my most favorites is Holding Onto You. My current favorite that had me crying while driving home the other day is Johnny Boy.

“I will carry all your names and I will carry all your shame”

That’s God singing to His children.

Dang, I’m crying even writing that.

I am so thankful that God put these lyrics in them to share with all of us. So much hate in this world and here you have two men singing to reach others who are where, I assume, they’ve been. You don’t sing with that much passion and with those kind of lyrics without knowing the pain and without knowing the hope there is to be had.

Well, this wasn’t a thought out post so I may write about them again later. I mean, I could write an entire post about each and every song.

Even Taco Bell Saga.

Ok, so not all their songs are pointing to God.

And for those who have never heard that one, you’re welcome 😉

It’s bedtime now, so till next time.

Blessings!

Old Sins Cast Long Shadows

October 2, 2017

One sin.

That’s all it takes.

One sin can destroy so many.

I began writing this post a while ago but I want to address a current situation in the news. Hugh Hefner died. You guys, I don’t know anything about him. I don’t know how he created Play Boy. I don’t know what his thought life was like. I can assume he was not a Christian. But I know absolutely nothing of him. He’s not somebody I’ve ever spent time looking into. All I know is that he alone did not cause so many to sin. Hugh did not become famous on his own. It was all of his customers that made him famous. He did not force anybody to buy his magazines. People were eager to indulge their flesh and he saw a money making opportunity. Was it wrong of him? Absolutely! But it was personal choice that caused these sexual sins. Personal choice is what destroyed families. Personal choice is what scarred memories and ruined futures. We simply can not put our blame on somebody else. When we sin, we need to own it.

We take sin so lightly sometimes. Yet all it takes is one solitary sin to destroy multitudes. It effects so many. There are ripples that touch and scar those who are close to us and those we may never know. Dreams could be torn apart. Families could be rampaged. Sin has one mission and that is to kill and destroy. Let’s remember, always, that old sins cast long shadows. Though one small sin may seem gone and never to be heard of again, it may be effecting so many years later. We never know.

Repentance is so important and yet so foreign in this day and age. It’s so easy to hide behind our screens and act like our lives are Instagram perfect. To repentant is to accept that what we’ve done was evil in God’s sight. To apologize and seek forgiveness from those we have damaged.

When we see the light we are never the same again. Ever. Our eyes are no longer on ourselves, our sight is on making Him look greater. I saw a church billboard the other day that was spot on.

“Sin is like a credit card. Enjoy now. Pay later.”

Oh but that payment. We can try and pay but we will never ever be able to cover the payments. Only One can pay. And it’s up to ourselves whether we allow Him to cover our dirtiness with His love.

To see a truly repentant man is to see one who hates what his choice to sin has done. Who chooses to use his wrong doing to help others to not make the same wicked choice. We could all go about sinning and apologizing. But the beauty in helping others out of their current or possible future sin is lost. We have the ability to reach somebody now and protect them from going down the same dangerous road we walked. We need to be the light that they need to guide them towards their true Protector.

God can make beauty from ashes. But those ashes are wide spread. Wider than we may ever know. Influence others with Christ’s love while you can because we don’t deserve it. We don’t deserve such a loving Father. We deserve Hell. But because of His grace, love, and forgiveness we have the ability to change our lives and so many others.

Sin is self focused, but no sin is beyond the forgiveness of God.

For you were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another.
Galatians 5:13

Blessings!